HAPPY B DAYS!!!

its my little brothers birthday. he is turning six today. i am sitting here on my computer eating chicken like a starving wolf. i just started trying to finish the prologue of my story. i did it. im on chapter one now. im also ata rutt...writers block.

i died my hair and cut it yesterday. it didnt turn out the way i wanted it to...instead of pale blond, it came out rich bronze...but my cut is cute!!! i have bangs now. my hair is layerd too! i would put up a pic. but i found out why i cant post pics! bacause my profile on my side of the computer doesnt do the same thing as the main computer profile. i cant upload any of the pics. and i cant download informational CDs. but yeah, so i cant upload a picture of what i look like now. but oh well, i dont care. im actually greatfull. i look HORRABLE. mom says that our family has a long line of gourgious people, and ive noticed, but i guess im an exeption to that. i just look to strange. i have natural tanned skin. everyone else is pale. i am tall when their all short. i am thin while they are a little thicker...and i have some weird gene that gives me an odd.....well, people think i am older than i am. i know why now, but i dont exactly know why im that way. blue eyes run in the family. mine change color...my hair isnt blond like theirs either. its a dull redish brown...auburn....well. its bronze now, so i dont have to worry about it so much.

i never really had an ego when it came down to looks. just adittude. people think im hard core. but im actually kinda sensative. i was crying recently over almost nothing at all. i find that i cry when im mad too. like, when mica started calling me mean names, i got pissed and swore at him, then walked away. at first i felt triumphant and ticked off. but then i felt unwanted and unnessasary. i started to cry despite the fact that i was mad. i felt bad that i had also lost it and swore at the guy.

im not mean or anything, and i usualy end up crying when i think ive hurt someone elses feelings, even if they deserve it.

but on that note, im going to end my little pointless post and move on to th song of the day.

SONG OF THE DAY: secondhand serenade " a twist in my story"

slow down, the world isnt watching us break down
its safe to say we're alone now. we're alone now.
not a whisper, the only noise is the receiver.
im counting the seconds until you break the silence.
so please just break the silence.

the whispers turn to shouting.
the shouting turns to tears.
yours tears turn to laughter.
and it washes away our fears.

so you see, this world doesnt matter to me.
ill give up all i have just to breathe the same air
as you till the day that i die, i cant take my eyes off of you.

im longing for words to describe how im feeling.
im feeling inspired, my world just slipped.
turned upside down.
and turned around. say whats that sound?
its my heart beat. this couldnt be better. my heart beat.
its stronger than ever, im feeling so alive, im feeling so alive.

the whispers turn to shouting. the shouting turns to tears.
your tears turn to laughter. and it washes away our fears

so you see, this world doesnt matter to me.
ill give up all have just to breathe the same air as you till the day i die.
i cant take my eyes off of you.

im finally waking up. a twist in my story.
its time im waking up, and let your love shine through me.
im finally waking up. a twist in my story.
its time im waking up, and let your love shine through me.
cos thats what you get,
when you see your life through someone elses eyes.
thats what you get, thats what you get.

so you see, this world doesnt matter to me.
ill give up all i have just to breathe the same air as you till the day that i die
i cant take my eyes off of you.

so you see, this wolrd doesnt matter to me.
ill give all that i have just to breathe the same air as you till the day that i die.
i cant take my eyes off of you.