Grounded....

okay, while john has lynn to occupy him, and lee went to his families place for christmas, i am grounded for getting bad grades. why am i on now you ask? because i did a butt load of laundry and cooked some venicin stew, mom is letting me check my email and update my blog.
its nice to know i was missed in the last two weeks....YOU ALL SUCK DONKY BALLS!!!!

i will now fully introduce my boyfriend. his name is james castle. yes, i have a brother and a brother-in-law named james, and my moms ex's name is james, but this guy is alot different.

he's 14 years old. he's 5,7. he's got really pale skin, bright blue eyes, dark brown hair with nateral red highlights. he is like, anerexic skinny.....but he eats like a frickin pig.

he's really funny, and doesnt really have alot of friends...but thats probably because he's offensive to alot of people. like, he ran down one of the halls at school and stopped, pointed at a random girl, and shouted "you owe me your life, i just saved you!" and then ran back over to me and gave me this huge hug. everyone started to giggle, he turned around and started chasing them while saying " im going to keeeeeeellll you!!!!!" and then he ran out of site.

then he went home sick one day, and i found out later that his heart failed, and he almost died. just my luck right? because the day that he had his heart failure, he kissed me. everyone said it was my fault.....

anyway, he made me these awesome gold plated crystal earings and gave them to me, along with another kiss.

hey john, youll be happy to know that your remationship with lynn has shocked me quite a bot, and i am over you. you are simply my big brother now, just like you should have been from the start.

despite the weirdness, and unpopularity of my boyfriend, i really have developed this adiction to him. he likes everything i like....he's funny. tall, and....well...not really all that smart when it comes to school....he should be in 9th grade, but he's still in 8th...
and everyone keeps saying im crazy for dating him....maybe i just have really bad taste in guys, but if i dont date the guy, who will? he is really sweet when it comes to me. i told him i hated snow, and winter, he said he was going to throw me into a snowbank! isnt he just wonderful?!

he gave me his camera and told me to take pics of myself and give it to him. but then he went home sick again and i havnt seen him since.

on friday, mica and anthony took advantage of his absence and started making fun of me. they called james names and said he needed to go to a mentle hospital, and that i needed to because i was dating him. and then they went on and on about my "ishues". and to top it off, mica called me ugly. that hurt, i know i dont exactly look beautiful, but i dont look that bad do i?
i ended up calling him a damn miget, and then walking away. i ended up crying in a bathroom courner....

but srsly, mica is 15 years old, in 8th grade, and he's a foot shorter than i am! he says i have problems....

yeah, and christmas brake started, and i wont get to see james for another two weeks!!!
its gonna be the longest two weeks ever!!!! i miss him so much.....


once again, i think i have bad taste in guys when it comes to looks [exept you john!] but i think ill end up puting a pic of james on in the future.


SONG OF THE DAY: MY CHEMICAL ROMANCE "CANCER"

turn away
if you could get me a drink of water
cos my lips are chapped and faded
call my aunt merie

help her gather all my things
and burry me in all my favorite colors
my sisters and my brothers still
i will not kiss you

cos the hardest part of this
is leavin you

turn away
cos im awefull just to see
all my hairs abandend all my body
oh my agony

know that ill never marry
baby im just soggy from the chemo
im counting down the days to go
it just aint livin
and i just hope you know

that if you say goodbye today
ill ask you to be true
cos the hardest part of this
is leavin you

yeah the hardest part of this is leavin you