its my little brothers birthday. he is turning six today. i am sitting here on my computer eating chicken like a starving wolf. i just started trying to finish the prologue of my story. i did it. im on chapter one now. im also ata rutt...writers block.
i died my hair and cut it yesterday. it didnt turn out the way i wanted it to...instead of pale blond, it came out rich bronze...but my cut is cute!!! i have bangs now. my hair is layerd too! i would put up a pic. but i found out why i cant post pics! bacause my profile on my side of the computer doesnt do the same thing as the main computer profile. i cant upload any of the pics. and i cant download informational CDs. but yeah, so i cant upload a picture of what i look like now. but oh well, i dont care. im actually greatfull. i look HORRABLE. mom says that our family has a long line of gourgious people, and ive noticed, but i guess im an exeption to that. i just look to strange. i have natural tanned skin. everyone else is pale. i am tall when their all short. i am thin while they are a little thicker...and i have some weird gene that gives me an odd.....well, people think i am older than i am. i know why now, but i dont exactly know why im that way. blue eyes run in the family. mine change color...my hair isnt blond like theirs either. its a dull redish brown...auburn....well. its bronze now, so i dont have to worry about it so much.
i never really had an ego when it came down to looks. just adittude. people think im hard core. but im actually kinda sensative. i was crying recently over almost nothing at all. i find that i cry when im mad too. like, when mica started calling me mean names, i got pissed and swore at him, then walked away. at first i felt triumphant and ticked off. but then i felt unwanted and unnessasary. i started to cry despite the fact that i was mad. i felt bad that i had also lost it and swore at the guy.
im not mean or anything, and i usualy end up crying when i think ive hurt someone elses feelings, even if they deserve it.
but on that note, im going to end my little pointless post and move on to th song of the day.
SONG OF THE DAY: secondhand serenade " a twist in my story"
slow down, the world isnt watching us break down
its safe to say we're alone now. we're alone now.
not a whisper, the only noise is the receiver.
im counting the seconds until you break the silence.
so please just break the silence.
the whispers turn to shouting.
the shouting turns to tears.
yours tears turn to laughter.
and it washes away our fears.
so you see, this world doesnt matter to me.
ill give up all i have just to breathe the same air
as you till the day that i die, i cant take my eyes off of you.
im longing for words to describe how im feeling.
im feeling inspired, my world just slipped.
turned upside down.
and turned around. say whats that sound?
its my heart beat. this couldnt be better. my heart beat.
its stronger than ever, im feeling so alive, im feeling so alive.
the whispers turn to shouting. the shouting turns to tears.
your tears turn to laughter. and it washes away our fears
so you see, this world doesnt matter to me.
ill give up all have just to breathe the same air as you till the day i die.
i cant take my eyes off of you.
im finally waking up. a twist in my story.
its time im waking up, and let your love shine through me.
im finally waking up. a twist in my story.
its time im waking up, and let your love shine through me.
cos thats what you get,
when you see your life through someone elses eyes.
thats what you get, thats what you get.
so you see, this world doesnt matter to me.
ill give up all i have just to breathe the same air as you till the day that i die
i cant take my eyes off of you.
so you see, this wolrd doesnt matter to me.
ill give all that i have just to breathe the same air as you till the day that i die.
i cant take my eyes off of you.
Wednesday, December 31, 2008
Monday, December 29, 2008
manuscript update
yeah, yesterday i was hit by a avalanch of idias. and i got some of them down on paper before i had to do some more laundry and cook dinner. its my story, the first part in the series im writing. the name of it is "forever". i figuered, there arent many vamp romances around, and since stephanie meyers went so well, why not try my hand at them instead of writing fanfics on quizilla.
shout out to john: I USE THE NAME JOHN IN ALOT OF MY STORIES. i like that name, and i dont care if you thinks its dull and too common. it has alot of charicter, and it makes the person seem alot more real.
but yeah, i got half of the prologue done. that doesnt mean i havnt wroten alot. just the oposite, i have writtin quite alot. it will be a long prologue. i might work on it a bit today. i woke up early, and i am tyerd still. i have to baby sit my six year old little brother river. what a pain.
i thought i wanted lots of kids....but after having to baby sit three of my sisters and one of mine, including and thirteen year old juvinile delinquent [my cousin colton] i am limiting myself to a short number of TWO!
i cant emagin wanting five or six kids anymore. and i think this is healthier for my body too.
shana said that any time i want kids or i want sex, just borrow her little monsters for a day, and that would change my mind. it works!!!
but thankfully, i have a week, just one more week, to go until i can see my james....i cant wait. there is a sinking feeling in my gut that developes when i think of him, merely because i think he might be losing interest, wich, i will do my best, to stay active and fun.
today is my 18 year old brothers birthday. he went to live with his dad last year, and we havnt seen him since. we know he's out there still, because he called my ex-step-fathers house. he refuses to call my mom. how immature. she raised him since he was a baby. his father didnt even want him! and he just pushes his family away to go live with the father that didnt want him!
its sick.
but yeah, i dont have much more to say.
SONG OF THE DAY: secondhand serenade "your call"
waiting for your call. im sick, call im angry.
call im desperate for your voice.
im listening to the song we used to sing, im in the car,
do you remember, butterfly, ealy summer,
its playing on repeat, just like when we would meet.
like when we would meet.
i was born to tell you i love you.
and im torn to do what i have to.
to make you mine, stay with me tonight.
stripped and pilished, i am new, i am fresh
i am feeling so ambitious.
you and me, flesh to flesh
cos every breath that you will take
when your sitting next to me,
will bring life into my deepest hopes.
whats your fantasy?
whats your...whats your...
i was born to tell you i love you
and im torn to do what i have to,
to make you mine
stay with me tonight.
and i am tired of being all alone
and this solitary moment makes me want to come back home
and im tired of being all alone
and this solitary moment makes me want to come back home
and im tired of being all alone
and this solitary moment makes me want to come back home
im tired of being all alone
but this solitary moment makes me want to come back home
i was born to tell you i love you
and i am torn to do what i have to
i was born to tell you i love you
and im torn to do what i have to
i was born to tell you i love you
and im torn to do what i have to
i was born to tell you i love you
and i am torn to do what i have to
to make you mine stay with me tonight.
shout out to john: I USE THE NAME JOHN IN ALOT OF MY STORIES. i like that name, and i dont care if you thinks its dull and too common. it has alot of charicter, and it makes the person seem alot more real.
but yeah, i got half of the prologue done. that doesnt mean i havnt wroten alot. just the oposite, i have writtin quite alot. it will be a long prologue. i might work on it a bit today. i woke up early, and i am tyerd still. i have to baby sit my six year old little brother river. what a pain.
i thought i wanted lots of kids....but after having to baby sit three of my sisters and one of mine, including and thirteen year old juvinile delinquent [my cousin colton] i am limiting myself to a short number of TWO!
i cant emagin wanting five or six kids anymore. and i think this is healthier for my body too.
shana said that any time i want kids or i want sex, just borrow her little monsters for a day, and that would change my mind. it works!!!
but thankfully, i have a week, just one more week, to go until i can see my james....i cant wait. there is a sinking feeling in my gut that developes when i think of him, merely because i think he might be losing interest, wich, i will do my best, to stay active and fun.
today is my 18 year old brothers birthday. he went to live with his dad last year, and we havnt seen him since. we know he's out there still, because he called my ex-step-fathers house. he refuses to call my mom. how immature. she raised him since he was a baby. his father didnt even want him! and he just pushes his family away to go live with the father that didnt want him!
its sick.
but yeah, i dont have much more to say.
SONG OF THE DAY: secondhand serenade "your call"
waiting for your call. im sick, call im angry.
call im desperate for your voice.
im listening to the song we used to sing, im in the car,
do you remember, butterfly, ealy summer,
its playing on repeat, just like when we would meet.
like when we would meet.
i was born to tell you i love you.
and im torn to do what i have to.
to make you mine, stay with me tonight.
stripped and pilished, i am new, i am fresh
i am feeling so ambitious.
you and me, flesh to flesh
cos every breath that you will take
when your sitting next to me,
will bring life into my deepest hopes.
whats your fantasy?
whats your...whats your...
i was born to tell you i love you
and im torn to do what i have to,
to make you mine
stay with me tonight.
and i am tired of being all alone
and this solitary moment makes me want to come back home
and im tired of being all alone
and this solitary moment makes me want to come back home
and im tired of being all alone
and this solitary moment makes me want to come back home
im tired of being all alone
but this solitary moment makes me want to come back home
i was born to tell you i love you
and i am torn to do what i have to
i was born to tell you i love you
and im torn to do what i have to
i was born to tell you i love you
and im torn to do what i have to
i was born to tell you i love you
and i am torn to do what i have to
to make you mine stay with me tonight.
Saturday, December 27, 2008
post christmas joy
well, christmas went well. yay! i got some really neat stuff. i got a new mp3 player. its slick, but i have no idia how to to work it....it refusis to turn off when i turn it on...and then the screan simply gets stuck on one thing, making it impossible to listen to music.
on the upside, i got a cell phone! tis wonderful. my dad has been texting me alot. im running low on minutes, but when ever i get some, it doubles! and then i got some of the twilight series. mom got me "breaking dawn" the last book of the series, but i realised, i already had that book on my shelf! but then she got me two thers from the series, "eclipse" the third book, and "new moon" the second. so now i have two of the same book, and the only one in the series that i dont have is the first book "twilight". other than that, i got a few harry potter games for my gameboy advance. no DS games this year.
at around seven oclock, me and my mom and my little brother had to drive on fewms all the way down to mancelona to go to the christmas party at my aunt mell's place. we just barely made it before the truck ran out of gas. my uncle bill syfined some gas into the truck so we could get home too.
but while we where there, quite a few things happened. me and torrie sung non-christmas-related song while colton jammed on his guitar. we where OUTSIDE for christams dinner. when torries boyfriend taylor showed up, the teens all went inside. colton and taylor jammed on there guitars while i messed with the piano. i joined them finally when they started to wrestle. taylor won the brawl...than colton decided he wanted to get his butt kicked by ME. i kicked him in the gut, face, and nuts before he finaly punched me in the chest and then tripped me...i pulled him down too by accident. and heres the thing...colton isnt axactly thin anymore....he's "fluffy". not fat, but not skinny.....and i accidentaly pulled him ON me. i got the wind knocked out of me! i now have a fair sized bruise on my side.
after all of that, we settled down and played vidio games while torrie and taylor started making out on the coutch. i got smoked by taylor at guitar hero, but hey, i havnt played in a while, and he's a REAL guitar player. so ofcourse i would lose.
i dicided a while ago that i would be cutting my hair and dying it blond. and i plan on doing it soon....before james gets bored and decides to dump me....mom doesnt think he will, but i havnt seen him in two weeks, how do i know he hasnt already lost his interest in me? all i can do it wait and see whats ahead when school starts up again...i cant wait until i am out of school, so i can find a more mature guy, someone who graduated a considerable amount of year before me.....maybe someone at least five years more experience that i have. but hey, i dont know, i might just end up with a guy who feels exactly like me, and then fall in love with him before getting to really know him. it wouldnt be good, but maybe i could start from scratch and have enough tallent to pull up a writing career and get a house for us to live in.......i would much rather have an experienced guy.
but anyway, today, i finished the book "eclipse" again. i love the twilight series, it never gets old.
but then mom decided that the house was too dirty to live in, and made me and river clean. im still not finished with the laundry or the dishis, wich is why i will be ending this post soon.
SONG OF THE DAY: secondhand serenade "stranger"
turn around,turn around and fix your
eys in my derection
so there is a connection
i cant speak, cant make a sound to capture
your attention
im starring at perfection
take a look at me
so you can see how beautiful you are
you call me a stranger
you say im a danger
but all those thought are
leaving you tonight
im broken,abandoned
you are an angel
making all my dreams come true tonight
im confident, ut i cant pretend i wasnt terrified to meet you.
i knew you could see right through me
i saw my life flash before my vary eyes
and i knew just what we'd turn into
i was hoping you could see
take a look at me so you can see how beautiful you are
you call me a stranger
you say im a danger
but all those thoughts are leaving you tonight
im broken, abandoned
you are an angel
making all my dreams come true tonight
your an engel making all my dreams come true tonight
take a look at me so you can see how beautiful you are
take a look at me so you can see how beautiful you are
take a look at me so you can see how beautiful you are
take a look at me so you can see how beautiful you are
your beauty seems so far away
id have to write a thousand songs to make you
comprehend how beautiful you are
i know that i cant make you stay
but i would give my final breath to make you
see how beautiful you are.
undertsand how beautiful you are.
you call e a stranger
you say im a danger
but all those thoughts are leaving you tonight
im broken,abandoned
you are an angel
making all my dreams come true tonight
you call me a stranger
you say im a danger
you call me a stranger
well thats all, i have to go finish the dishes before mom gets mad! bye bye!
on the upside, i got a cell phone! tis wonderful. my dad has been texting me alot. im running low on minutes, but when ever i get some, it doubles! and then i got some of the twilight series. mom got me "breaking dawn" the last book of the series, but i realised, i already had that book on my shelf! but then she got me two thers from the series, "eclipse" the third book, and "new moon" the second. so now i have two of the same book, and the only one in the series that i dont have is the first book "twilight". other than that, i got a few harry potter games for my gameboy advance. no DS games this year.
at around seven oclock, me and my mom and my little brother had to drive on fewms all the way down to mancelona to go to the christmas party at my aunt mell's place. we just barely made it before the truck ran out of gas. my uncle bill syfined some gas into the truck so we could get home too.
but while we where there, quite a few things happened. me and torrie sung non-christmas-related song while colton jammed on his guitar. we where OUTSIDE for christams dinner. when torries boyfriend taylor showed up, the teens all went inside. colton and taylor jammed on there guitars while i messed with the piano. i joined them finally when they started to wrestle. taylor won the brawl...than colton decided he wanted to get his butt kicked by ME. i kicked him in the gut, face, and nuts before he finaly punched me in the chest and then tripped me...i pulled him down too by accident. and heres the thing...colton isnt axactly thin anymore....he's "fluffy". not fat, but not skinny.....and i accidentaly pulled him ON me. i got the wind knocked out of me! i now have a fair sized bruise on my side.
after all of that, we settled down and played vidio games while torrie and taylor started making out on the coutch. i got smoked by taylor at guitar hero, but hey, i havnt played in a while, and he's a REAL guitar player. so ofcourse i would lose.
i dicided a while ago that i would be cutting my hair and dying it blond. and i plan on doing it soon....before james gets bored and decides to dump me....mom doesnt think he will, but i havnt seen him in two weeks, how do i know he hasnt already lost his interest in me? all i can do it wait and see whats ahead when school starts up again...i cant wait until i am out of school, so i can find a more mature guy, someone who graduated a considerable amount of year before me.....maybe someone at least five years more experience that i have. but hey, i dont know, i might just end up with a guy who feels exactly like me, and then fall in love with him before getting to really know him. it wouldnt be good, but maybe i could start from scratch and have enough tallent to pull up a writing career and get a house for us to live in.......i would much rather have an experienced guy.
but anyway, today, i finished the book "eclipse" again. i love the twilight series, it never gets old.
but then mom decided that the house was too dirty to live in, and made me and river clean. im still not finished with the laundry or the dishis, wich is why i will be ending this post soon.
SONG OF THE DAY: secondhand serenade "stranger"
turn around,turn around and fix your
eys in my derection
so there is a connection
i cant speak, cant make a sound to capture
your attention
im starring at perfection
take a look at me
so you can see how beautiful you are
you call me a stranger
you say im a danger
but all those thought are
leaving you tonight
im broken,abandoned
you are an angel
making all my dreams come true tonight
im confident, ut i cant pretend i wasnt terrified to meet you.
i knew you could see right through me
i saw my life flash before my vary eyes
and i knew just what we'd turn into
i was hoping you could see
take a look at me so you can see how beautiful you are
you call me a stranger
you say im a danger
but all those thoughts are leaving you tonight
im broken, abandoned
you are an angel
making all my dreams come true tonight
your an engel making all my dreams come true tonight
take a look at me so you can see how beautiful you are
take a look at me so you can see how beautiful you are
take a look at me so you can see how beautiful you are
take a look at me so you can see how beautiful you are
your beauty seems so far away
id have to write a thousand songs to make you
comprehend how beautiful you are
i know that i cant make you stay
but i would give my final breath to make you
see how beautiful you are.
undertsand how beautiful you are.
you call e a stranger
you say im a danger
but all those thoughts are leaving you tonight
im broken,abandoned
you are an angel
making all my dreams come true tonight
you call me a stranger
you say im a danger
you call me a stranger
well thats all, i have to go finish the dishes before mom gets mad! bye bye!
Wednesday, December 24, 2008
its 8:53 in the morning....
yeah, im awake. my stupid little brother wouldnt let me sleep in christmas eve morning....
i am officialy ungrounded today and tommorow. but after that, i will be grounded again, until i finish all the dirty laundry in the house.....
i swear there is somethin rong with me. i have been having dreams about my boyfriend....accurate dreams....vivid dreams....i need to lay off some of the tea ive been drinking....
like last night, i has a dream about french kissing him! i dont even really know if he likes french kissing! and then i had a dream he preposed to me....wich to be honest, scared the crap outta me. i aint ready for that shit....im 13 years old fro petesake...
i dont really know if he likes me enough to do any of that anyway...gee, isnt waking up in dinial great? whats worse, im scared to go to church now. what do i have to go for anyway? i dont do anything there....lost all my friends...i guess i might drop out of that....focus on other things for a while....srsly, im to the point to where im starting to think god wants be to lose all of the people that i really want to be with...i barely even see heidi anymore....and when she emails me, its really really short....at least she cares enough to say hi every once in a while...
i guess i woke up on the rong side of the bed. its christmas eve....i should be happy right?
i wonder what im getting. mom said everything is small, but expensive....and i have at least 11 things.....i wonder what it all is. its starting to really bug me. but i'll find out in the morning...
its gonna be so hard to get to sleep tonight....i have to help wrap my little brothers preasants....
well, i gotta go make my moms coffe. ttyl
i am officialy ungrounded today and tommorow. but after that, i will be grounded again, until i finish all the dirty laundry in the house.....
i swear there is somethin rong with me. i have been having dreams about my boyfriend....accurate dreams....vivid dreams....i need to lay off some of the tea ive been drinking....
like last night, i has a dream about french kissing him! i dont even really know if he likes french kissing! and then i had a dream he preposed to me....wich to be honest, scared the crap outta me. i aint ready for that shit....im 13 years old fro petesake...
i dont really know if he likes me enough to do any of that anyway...gee, isnt waking up in dinial great? whats worse, im scared to go to church now. what do i have to go for anyway? i dont do anything there....lost all my friends...i guess i might drop out of that....focus on other things for a while....srsly, im to the point to where im starting to think god wants be to lose all of the people that i really want to be with...i barely even see heidi anymore....and when she emails me, its really really short....at least she cares enough to say hi every once in a while...
i guess i woke up on the rong side of the bed. its christmas eve....i should be happy right?
i wonder what im getting. mom said everything is small, but expensive....and i have at least 11 things.....i wonder what it all is. its starting to really bug me. but i'll find out in the morning...
its gonna be so hard to get to sleep tonight....i have to help wrap my little brothers preasants....
well, i gotta go make my moms coffe. ttyl
Tuesday, December 23, 2008
oh im soo scared *heavy on the sarcasm*
yeah, thanx for the warning john. im being hunted by a 58 year-old-woman.
what the hell did i ever do to her anyway?.....
and no, i will not be bringing my bf to grace for church. it wouldnt be a wize idia. he is athiest. big time athiest. i think i should start out small. im trying to get him to go to my youth group at the bible baptist church here in central lake. i dont know if that will work though, but if i make a break through, and he starts feeling something, ill take him to grace for the adult survise, paster jenkins always has a nice survise. i wont be taking him to teen church, to many bad influences......ever since katlyn came back.....from rehab.....
hey john!!! your mom dont know what i look like right? should i die my hair blond???
but anyway, mom let me on the computer because i am watching my little brother river. my ex-step-dad andy got me this awesome twilight shirt for christmas. he let me open the preasent early because he was supposed to go to jail today. but he didnt. he just got probation for a year and a 1000 $ fine. DONT DO DRUGS!!!!
but yeah, i feel pretty guilty, if i didnt have such a damn bad mouth, mrs. pavlick wouldnt hate my guts. i can see it now.
im walking in to church. i sit in a spot and see her walking up looking around with her brown beaty eyes.....i get up and start to sprint to a safe place. but its to late, she saw me.
her: hey you! you talkin dirty to my son!? ill keeeeelllll you!!!!
me: sorry grama, im already dead!
i run out of church and steel a random car and then later get arrested for joyriding. no one beleives my story about getting chased by mrs pavlick.
srsly john, i has nothin against your mom, and i is really really really sorry for the way i talked to you. i would email this to you, but i dont want you to get in trouble.
BUT REMEMBER! do you want to do work for god? how are you going to do that, if the people who NEED help, your mom says you can hang with.
i mean srsly, i like, stopped smoking and drinking after i met you, i havnt picked up a cigerette in three months, and i didnt drink all that much before....so it was easy to quite that. AND IT WAS ALL BECAUSE OF YOU!!!!
remember that!!!!!!!
well anyway, back to my day.
today i baked brownies for my uncle bill. i also helped my little brother nake brownie snow cones for my cousin scooter. mom made some awesome hot pepper bombs for my cousn colton.
uncle bill hast told me what he's making for me, but i cant wait to find out.
ill be giving my boyfriend a kiss for christmas, and then i might get my ears pearced and wear his earings.
he is a really sweet guy when you get to know him......exept when it comes to porn......i like, was looking through his CD's, he's got one with a naked chick on it.....
but the good news is he thinks blow jobs are nasty!!!! [i can change that.]
not much else happened today, so ill just post a link to my buddy lee's blog.
WARNING: lee is in fact gay...ish. he still likes girls, but he likes guys more
http://leeplitt.blogspot.com/
i dont really want to post a song of the day. but i am listening to Good Charlotte " i dont wanna be in love." its really good.
bye bye!!!!
what the hell did i ever do to her anyway?.....
and no, i will not be bringing my bf to grace for church. it wouldnt be a wize idia. he is athiest. big time athiest. i think i should start out small. im trying to get him to go to my youth group at the bible baptist church here in central lake. i dont know if that will work though, but if i make a break through, and he starts feeling something, ill take him to grace for the adult survise, paster jenkins always has a nice survise. i wont be taking him to teen church, to many bad influences......ever since katlyn came back.....from rehab.....
hey john!!! your mom dont know what i look like right? should i die my hair blond???
but anyway, mom let me on the computer because i am watching my little brother river. my ex-step-dad andy got me this awesome twilight shirt for christmas. he let me open the preasent early because he was supposed to go to jail today. but he didnt. he just got probation for a year and a 1000 $ fine. DONT DO DRUGS!!!!
but yeah, i feel pretty guilty, if i didnt have such a damn bad mouth, mrs. pavlick wouldnt hate my guts. i can see it now.
im walking in to church. i sit in a spot and see her walking up looking around with her brown beaty eyes.....i get up and start to sprint to a safe place. but its to late, she saw me.
her: hey you! you talkin dirty to my son!? ill keeeeelllll you!!!!
me: sorry grama, im already dead!
i run out of church and steel a random car and then later get arrested for joyriding. no one beleives my story about getting chased by mrs pavlick.
srsly john, i has nothin against your mom, and i is really really really sorry for the way i talked to you. i would email this to you, but i dont want you to get in trouble.
BUT REMEMBER! do you want to do work for god? how are you going to do that, if the people who NEED help, your mom says you can hang with.
i mean srsly, i like, stopped smoking and drinking after i met you, i havnt picked up a cigerette in three months, and i didnt drink all that much before....so it was easy to quite that. AND IT WAS ALL BECAUSE OF YOU!!!!
remember that!!!!!!!
well anyway, back to my day.
today i baked brownies for my uncle bill. i also helped my little brother nake brownie snow cones for my cousin scooter. mom made some awesome hot pepper bombs for my cousn colton.
uncle bill hast told me what he's making for me, but i cant wait to find out.
ill be giving my boyfriend a kiss for christmas, and then i might get my ears pearced and wear his earings.
he is a really sweet guy when you get to know him......exept when it comes to porn......i like, was looking through his CD's, he's got one with a naked chick on it.....
but the good news is he thinks blow jobs are nasty!!!! [i can change that.]
not much else happened today, so ill just post a link to my buddy lee's blog.
WARNING: lee is in fact gay...ish. he still likes girls, but he likes guys more
http://leeplitt.blogspot.com/
i dont really want to post a song of the day. but i am listening to Good Charlotte " i dont wanna be in love." its really good.
bye bye!!!!
Monday, December 22, 2008
Grounded....
okay, while john has lynn to occupy him, and lee went to his families place for christmas, i am grounded for getting bad grades. why am i on now you ask? because i did a butt load of laundry and cooked some venicin stew, mom is letting me check my email and update my blog.
its nice to know i was missed in the last two weeks....YOU ALL SUCK DONKY BALLS!!!!
i will now fully introduce my boyfriend. his name is james castle. yes, i have a brother and a brother-in-law named james, and my moms ex's name is james, but this guy is alot different.
he's 14 years old. he's 5,7. he's got really pale skin, bright blue eyes, dark brown hair with nateral red highlights. he is like, anerexic skinny.....but he eats like a frickin pig.
he's really funny, and doesnt really have alot of friends...but thats probably because he's offensive to alot of people. like, he ran down one of the halls at school and stopped, pointed at a random girl, and shouted "you owe me your life, i just saved you!" and then ran back over to me and gave me this huge hug. everyone started to giggle, he turned around and started chasing them while saying " im going to keeeeeeellll you!!!!!" and then he ran out of site.
then he went home sick one day, and i found out later that his heart failed, and he almost died. just my luck right? because the day that he had his heart failure, he kissed me. everyone said it was my fault.....
anyway, he made me these awesome gold plated crystal earings and gave them to me, along with another kiss.
hey john, youll be happy to know that your remationship with lynn has shocked me quite a bot, and i am over you. you are simply my big brother now, just like you should have been from the start.
despite the weirdness, and unpopularity of my boyfriend, i really have developed this adiction to him. he likes everything i like....he's funny. tall, and....well...not really all that smart when it comes to school....he should be in 9th grade, but he's still in 8th...
and everyone keeps saying im crazy for dating him....maybe i just have really bad taste in guys, but if i dont date the guy, who will? he is really sweet when it comes to me. i told him i hated snow, and winter, he said he was going to throw me into a snowbank! isnt he just wonderful?!
he gave me his camera and told me to take pics of myself and give it to him. but then he went home sick again and i havnt seen him since.
on friday, mica and anthony took advantage of his absence and started making fun of me. they called james names and said he needed to go to a mentle hospital, and that i needed to because i was dating him. and then they went on and on about my "ishues". and to top it off, mica called me ugly. that hurt, i know i dont exactly look beautiful, but i dont look that bad do i?
i ended up calling him a damn miget, and then walking away. i ended up crying in a bathroom courner....
but srsly, mica is 15 years old, in 8th grade, and he's a foot shorter than i am! he says i have problems....
yeah, and christmas brake started, and i wont get to see james for another two weeks!!!
its gonna be the longest two weeks ever!!!! i miss him so much.....
once again, i think i have bad taste in guys when it comes to looks [exept you john!] but i think ill end up puting a pic of james on in the future.
SONG OF THE DAY: MY CHEMICAL ROMANCE "CANCER"
turn away
if you could get me a drink of water
cos my lips are chapped and faded
call my aunt merie
help her gather all my things
and burry me in all my favorite colors
my sisters and my brothers still
i will not kiss you
cos the hardest part of this
is leavin you
turn away
cos im awefull just to see
all my hairs abandend all my body
oh my agony
know that ill never marry
baby im just soggy from the chemo
im counting down the days to go
it just aint livin
and i just hope you know
that if you say goodbye today
ill ask you to be true
cos the hardest part of this
is leavin you
yeah the hardest part of this is leavin you
its nice to know i was missed in the last two weeks....YOU ALL SUCK DONKY BALLS!!!!
i will now fully introduce my boyfriend. his name is james castle. yes, i have a brother and a brother-in-law named james, and my moms ex's name is james, but this guy is alot different.
he's 14 years old. he's 5,7. he's got really pale skin, bright blue eyes, dark brown hair with nateral red highlights. he is like, anerexic skinny.....but he eats like a frickin pig.
he's really funny, and doesnt really have alot of friends...but thats probably because he's offensive to alot of people. like, he ran down one of the halls at school and stopped, pointed at a random girl, and shouted "you owe me your life, i just saved you!" and then ran back over to me and gave me this huge hug. everyone started to giggle, he turned around and started chasing them while saying " im going to keeeeeeellll you!!!!!" and then he ran out of site.
then he went home sick one day, and i found out later that his heart failed, and he almost died. just my luck right? because the day that he had his heart failure, he kissed me. everyone said it was my fault.....
anyway, he made me these awesome gold plated crystal earings and gave them to me, along with another kiss.
hey john, youll be happy to know that your remationship with lynn has shocked me quite a bot, and i am over you. you are simply my big brother now, just like you should have been from the start.
despite the weirdness, and unpopularity of my boyfriend, i really have developed this adiction to him. he likes everything i like....he's funny. tall, and....well...not really all that smart when it comes to school....he should be in 9th grade, but he's still in 8th...
and everyone keeps saying im crazy for dating him....maybe i just have really bad taste in guys, but if i dont date the guy, who will? he is really sweet when it comes to me. i told him i hated snow, and winter, he said he was going to throw me into a snowbank! isnt he just wonderful?!
he gave me his camera and told me to take pics of myself and give it to him. but then he went home sick again and i havnt seen him since.
on friday, mica and anthony took advantage of his absence and started making fun of me. they called james names and said he needed to go to a mentle hospital, and that i needed to because i was dating him. and then they went on and on about my "ishues". and to top it off, mica called me ugly. that hurt, i know i dont exactly look beautiful, but i dont look that bad do i?
i ended up calling him a damn miget, and then walking away. i ended up crying in a bathroom courner....
but srsly, mica is 15 years old, in 8th grade, and he's a foot shorter than i am! he says i have problems....
yeah, and christmas brake started, and i wont get to see james for another two weeks!!!
its gonna be the longest two weeks ever!!!! i miss him so much.....
once again, i think i have bad taste in guys when it comes to looks [exept you john!] but i think ill end up puting a pic of james on in the future.
SONG OF THE DAY: MY CHEMICAL ROMANCE "CANCER"
turn away
if you could get me a drink of water
cos my lips are chapped and faded
call my aunt merie
help her gather all my things
and burry me in all my favorite colors
my sisters and my brothers still
i will not kiss you
cos the hardest part of this
is leavin you
turn away
cos im awefull just to see
all my hairs abandend all my body
oh my agony
know that ill never marry
baby im just soggy from the chemo
im counting down the days to go
it just aint livin
and i just hope you know
that if you say goodbye today
ill ask you to be true
cos the hardest part of this
is leavin you
yeah the hardest part of this is leavin you
Thursday, December 11, 2008
the gayness of today
several weird/funny things happened to me today.
my boyfriend was at school this morning. i gave him a hug, and then later found out that he went home sick. im hoping i wont catch what he had....
after school i went to my piano lessons. it turned out that my aunt nessa [ the janitor is my aunt]
was making some guy who got detention do some work around the school. this guy was hot!!!
he was like, 17 years old. he was at leat 6,4. and omg he had a nice ass!!!
but anyway, after all that, i decorated my aunt nessas janitor closet dore with decorations.
she really lied them.
and then after that, i went home and took a long shower. then my friend sammy called and asked if i could go to the dance tommorow. mom said yes, and i will be going to dance with sammy's friend aurora who really wants to date me even though she is a girl......
then i got online and went to gmail and started to talk to lee. he is ubsessed with edward cullen from twilight. and i have been making up yaoi scenes for him ever since!
but yeah, lee is making a blog and he will send me a link momentarily.
but yeah, i also found a bunch of awesomely creepy pics......
but anyway, i must leave now! i will post again soon!!!
HEY JOHN! THAT GUY WAS YOUNGER THAN YOU AND H WAS TALLER!!!!
but not quite as hot as you!
my boyfriend was at school this morning. i gave him a hug, and then later found out that he went home sick. im hoping i wont catch what he had....
after school i went to my piano lessons. it turned out that my aunt nessa [ the janitor is my aunt]
was making some guy who got detention do some work around the school. this guy was hot!!!
he was like, 17 years old. he was at leat 6,4. and omg he had a nice ass!!!
but anyway, after all that, i decorated my aunt nessas janitor closet dore with decorations.
she really lied them.
and then after that, i went home and took a long shower. then my friend sammy called and asked if i could go to the dance tommorow. mom said yes, and i will be going to dance with sammy's friend aurora who really wants to date me even though she is a girl......
then i got online and went to gmail and started to talk to lee. he is ubsessed with edward cullen from twilight. and i have been making up yaoi scenes for him ever since!
but yeah, lee is making a blog and he will send me a link momentarily.
but yeah, i also found a bunch of awesomely creepy pics......
but anyway, i must leave now! i will post again soon!!!
HEY JOHN! THAT GUY WAS YOUNGER THAN YOU AND H WAS TALLER!!!!
but not quite as hot as you!
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