whats been up

my life for the last three days has been hell,life, and death all at the same time. it kills me to be so far away from john. . .but i do beleive that the guy i like in school likes me too! i have been called a living sex toy at school, and kicked many boys in the balls for it. i am not a wonton. [if people even use that term anymore.] and my bestest buddy/cousin kayla decided to do my math homework for me. i am happy because she is a genius, and i prolly got an A. . .
my boyfriedn started humping lockers and pop machines. . .george went to a band festival along with half of the class. i spent an hour outside raking for science class, then went inside second hour and typed a fanfic for the breadwinner. such a good book. . .

my mom had another abnormal papsmeire[sp???] last time that happened, she had servical cancer. she doesnt have a servix or whatever anymore, so she cant have cancer. . . i really dont know what to make of anything. its bad enough that my mom's internet boyfriend wants her to get on a plain over to carolina and go skydiving, scoobadiving, and sailing across the ocean. hell, she wont even get on a boat or a plain!

and i have been on the internet. twitter mostly. its quick and easy, and im starting to get some of my friends at school into it too.
i have been looking up loads of saosin and weird al. just some funny and meaningfu songs about not being alone, and how the back street boys are all gay.
and whenever i go into my room, i always get this urge to play on my piano. it isnt in key im afraid, but its still fun to make music on it. i have been drawing a hole lot better lately too. i guess i have a new insperation for gory art. bleeding and crying people with their hands chained to walls. . .it lookes like they were in a saw movie. . .

my chihuahua is starring at me like i am a freak, so i guess i should go now.