well yeah, today was weird in many ways. i was bumbed that my guy wasnt at school today.
and since he wasnt there, everyone started to pick on me. okay you see, i might think he's cute, but not everyone else does.....okay no one does. apperintly he's "trailor trash" and "the crazy guy" or someone actually had the nerve to call him "shit for brains"...!!!
okay! so he isnt afraid to be blunt! but he's really really nice! [to me]
on the other hand, today was a mess because my friend kayla just found out that her enemy linsday is going after her boyfriend, wich is my cousin colton. they wher fighting over him like rabbid dogs!!!
kayla even made me go to night church to spy on them! it was frusterating....i cant stand a girl who would just walk in on someone elses man like that! [hey john, thats why i keep my distance from you now days.] i really hate the confuesion of it all. bare with me here.
how would it feel to you if you walked over to find your man/woman talking to anothether, really attractive guy/girl??? youd get alittle aprehensive right? you'd be like "is he/she cheating on me!?" and then feelings would be hurt and all that crap...i just wish some people would understand that a relationship isnt something to walk in on uninvited. how would you like it if you felt like you where madly in love, and then some other guy/girl interfered and stole everything that you worked so hard to get? it would hurt. [unless you wher already cheating.]
anyway....
phrase of advise: DONT CHEAT!!! CHEATING IS FOR LOWSY BASTARDS WHO CANT PUT TWO AND TWO TOGETHER!!!
lyric of the moment: hellogoodbye "here in your arms" [this is techno, it was hard to catch all the jumbled words, but i did my best.]
i like where we are
when we drive in your car
i like where we are
here
cos are lips can touch
and our cheeks can brush
our lips can touch
here
here you are the one that only lies close to me
whispers hello i miss you quite terribly
i fell in love, in love with you suddenly
now theres no place else
i could be here in your arms.
i like where you sleep
when you sleep next to me
i like where you sleep
here
cos out lips can touch
our cheeks can brush
our lips can touch
here
where you are the one that only lies close to me
whispers hello i miss you quite terribly
i fell in love in love with you suddenly
theres no one else
i could be here in your arms...
our lips can touch....
our lips ca touch here....
where you are the only one who lies close to me
whispers hello i missed you quite terribly
i fell in love with you suddenly
theres no place else i could be...
here in your arms...
here in your arms.
Wednesday, December 10, 2008
Tuesday, December 9, 2008
BWAHAHAHAHA!!!
i have had soooo much fun today! my boyfriend is the sweetest guy ever! he like, tried to sneak into my classes with me, ansd he sat with me at lunch. he played with me at recess, and he gave me a hug after school before he left.
the only down side to it all is that he got suspended for being late to all of his classes....that might be my fault though....
when i got home, i installed this awesome wordperfect thing, it will help line up my stories and get them ready for printing. but i wont be using the spell checker because i promised johnny boy that id let him proof read! [love you big brother!!!]
and if anyone knows me personally, my spelling SUCKS! but yeah.....anyway....
word of advise: when your dating someone and you shar your first kiss together, rememeber, brush your teeth, pop in some mint gum, and ask before you add tongue!!!
[ it was quite embarrising when my ex boyfriend tried to french kiss me and i broke the kiss EMEDIATLY!]
I AM SORRY I DONT HAVE A RIDDLE OF THE DAY!!!
lyric of the moment:
secondhand serenade "fall for you"
the best thing about tonights that were not fighting
could it be that we have been this way before?
i know you dont think that im trying
i know your wearing thin down to the core
but hold your breath
because tonight will be the night that i will fall for you over again
dont make me change my mind
i wont live to see another day i swear its true
because a girl like you is impossible to find
your impossible to find
this is not what i intended
i always swore to you id never fall apart
you always thought i was stronger
i mighthave failed
but i have loved you from the start
but hold your breath
tonight will be the night that i will fall for you over again
dont make me change my mind
i wont live to see another day i swear its true
because a girl like you is impossible to find
your impossible to find
breathe in so deep
breathe me in
cards to keep
hold on to your words
talk is cheap
remember me tonight
in your sleep
tonight will be the night that i will fall for you over again
dont make me change my mind
i wont live to see another day i swear its true
because a girl like you is impossible to find
tonight will be the night that i will fall for you over again
dont make me change my mind
i wont live to see another day i swear its true
because a girl like you is impossible to find
your impossible to find.
the only down side to it all is that he got suspended for being late to all of his classes....that might be my fault though....
when i got home, i installed this awesome wordperfect thing, it will help line up my stories and get them ready for printing. but i wont be using the spell checker because i promised johnny boy that id let him proof read! [love you big brother!!!]
and if anyone knows me personally, my spelling SUCKS! but yeah.....anyway....
word of advise: when your dating someone and you shar your first kiss together, rememeber, brush your teeth, pop in some mint gum, and ask before you add tongue!!!
[ it was quite embarrising when my ex boyfriend tried to french kiss me and i broke the kiss EMEDIATLY!]
I AM SORRY I DONT HAVE A RIDDLE OF THE DAY!!!
lyric of the moment:
secondhand serenade "fall for you"
the best thing about tonights that were not fighting
could it be that we have been this way before?
i know you dont think that im trying
i know your wearing thin down to the core
but hold your breath
because tonight will be the night that i will fall for you over again
dont make me change my mind
i wont live to see another day i swear its true
because a girl like you is impossible to find
your impossible to find
this is not what i intended
i always swore to you id never fall apart
you always thought i was stronger
i mighthave failed
but i have loved you from the start
but hold your breath
tonight will be the night that i will fall for you over again
dont make me change my mind
i wont live to see another day i swear its true
because a girl like you is impossible to find
your impossible to find
breathe in so deep
breathe me in
cards to keep
hold on to your words
talk is cheap
remember me tonight
in your sleep
tonight will be the night that i will fall for you over again
dont make me change my mind
i wont live to see another day i swear its true
because a girl like you is impossible to find
tonight will be the night that i will fall for you over again
dont make me change my mind
i wont live to see another day i swear its true
because a girl like you is impossible to find
your impossible to find.
Monday, December 8, 2008
somethin good about today
okay, today has been pretty hectick. lots of things happened at one time.
but on the upside, i dont have to look for a boy friend anymore. i got one...and he's H-O-T-hot!
yeah, he's sweet too. i actually look forward to school now. but yeah, the downside to today is that im tottaly ticked at one of my friends that i thought was a good friend...im not gonna say what he did though. it hurts to just talk about it. but yeah, i have a mix of emotions today, ranging from peaceful, lovely, and sad. without further adu....
phrase of advice: dont dwell in the past, work hard to make a better future.
riddle of the day: what has eight legs and sucks the blood out of things?
possible answers:
a spider
an octipuss
or a vampire with a deformation
lyric of the moment:
AFI Kiss my eyes and lay me to sleep.
this is what i brought you this you can keep
this is what i brought you may forget me
i promised you my heart
just promise one thing
kiss my eyes and lay me to sleep
this is what i brought you this you can keep
this is what i brought you may forget me
i promised you my heart
just promise to sing
kiss my eyes and lay me to sleep
kiss my eyes and lay me to sleep
this is what i thought
i thought youd need me
this is what i thought
so think me nieve
i promised you my heart
youd promised youd keep
kiss my eyes and lay me to sleep...
but on the upside, i dont have to look for a boy friend anymore. i got one...and he's H-O-T-hot!
yeah, he's sweet too. i actually look forward to school now. but yeah, the downside to today is that im tottaly ticked at one of my friends that i thought was a good friend...im not gonna say what he did though. it hurts to just talk about it. but yeah, i have a mix of emotions today, ranging from peaceful, lovely, and sad. without further adu....
phrase of advice: dont dwell in the past, work hard to make a better future.
riddle of the day: what has eight legs and sucks the blood out of things?
possible answers:
a spider
an octipuss
or a vampire with a deformation
lyric of the moment:
AFI Kiss my eyes and lay me to sleep.
this is what i brought you this you can keep
this is what i brought you may forget me
i promised you my heart
just promise one thing
kiss my eyes and lay me to sleep
this is what i brought you this you can keep
this is what i brought you may forget me
i promised you my heart
just promise to sing
kiss my eyes and lay me to sleep
kiss my eyes and lay me to sleep
this is what i thought
i thought youd need me
this is what i thought
so think me nieve
i promised you my heart
youd promised youd keep
kiss my eyes and lay me to sleep...
Saturday, December 6, 2008
catistrophic brainblast
omg! i got a frickin brilliant plan for my blog to make it more interesting! i was like, reading the book brisingr. it is the last in the erigon series. [book four hasnt come out yet] but then i like, randomly thought about my blog and things i could do to improve on it. so, i have come to the conclusion that i will now be putting in a riddle of the day, a lyric of the moment, and a phrase of advise. and then there will be, ofcourse, my regular posting from my day. but that will come last.
the riddle of the day is:
i am colored in red and blue and every color of the rainbow. i am long and short,thick and thin, and i often rest coiled up. i can eat a hundren sheep in a row and still be hungry. what am i?
possible answers:
a dragon.
and aligator.
a woolen rug.
or a lion.
a phrase of advise:
those who rely stricktly on their physical abilities fall short to the minds of those around them, for if they arnt smart, then they are worthless, as they can be deceived and lead to their death of their own accord, and not know it untill they pass into the void.
be smart and only trust to a certain degree, only a fool will trust a stranger.
-ME!!!~ [yes, this advise came from the top of my head!]
lyric of the moment: [i have random emotions that i always seem to have a song for. i find his useful. say if i am feeling sad or deoressed, i put on a song to match my feelings, and i end up feeling better.]
Do you have the time: by: Green Day
Do you have the time
to listen to me wine
about nothing and everything all at once
I am one of those melodramatic fools
neurotic to the bone, no doubt about it
Sometimes I give myself the creeps
Sometimes my mind plays tricks on me
It all keeps adding up,
I think I´m cracking up
Am I just paranoid ? I´m just stoned
I went to a shrink to analyse my dreams
she says it´s lack of sex that´s bringing me down
I went to a whore, she said my life´s a bore
and quit whining cause it´s bringing her down
Sometimes I give myself the creeps
Sometimes my mind plays tricks on me
It all keeps adding up,
I think I´m cracking up
Am I just paranoid ? I´m just stoned
Grasping to control, so you better hold on
Sometimes I give myself the creeps
Sometimes my mind plays tricks on me
It all keeps adding up, I think I´m cracking up
Am I just paranoid ? I´m just stoned
okay, that song came from my emotions, as i am feeling quite energetic right now. i think i might have scared poor pat. he is my buss captain, and he and matt came over today and started to shuvel my porch. my enthusiasm seemed to scare poor pat, as he started to throw snow balls at me...
alas, my time has come, i shall begin to listen to john song "falling in love on accident." i have faith that it is going to be a great work of art, as i have not listened to it yet, but i am about to.
the riddle of the day is:
i am colored in red and blue and every color of the rainbow. i am long and short,thick and thin, and i often rest coiled up. i can eat a hundren sheep in a row and still be hungry. what am i?
possible answers:
a dragon.
and aligator.
a woolen rug.
or a lion.
a phrase of advise:
those who rely stricktly on their physical abilities fall short to the minds of those around them, for if they arnt smart, then they are worthless, as they can be deceived and lead to their death of their own accord, and not know it untill they pass into the void.
be smart and only trust to a certain degree, only a fool will trust a stranger.
-ME!!!~ [yes, this advise came from the top of my head!]
lyric of the moment: [i have random emotions that i always seem to have a song for. i find his useful. say if i am feeling sad or deoressed, i put on a song to match my feelings, and i end up feeling better.]
Do you have the time: by: Green Day
Do you have the time
to listen to me wine
about nothing and everything all at once
I am one of those melodramatic fools
neurotic to the bone, no doubt about it
Sometimes I give myself the creeps
Sometimes my mind plays tricks on me
It all keeps adding up,
I think I´m cracking up
Am I just paranoid ? I´m just stoned
I went to a shrink to analyse my dreams
she says it´s lack of sex that´s bringing me down
I went to a whore, she said my life´s a bore
and quit whining cause it´s bringing her down
Sometimes I give myself the creeps
Sometimes my mind plays tricks on me
It all keeps adding up,
I think I´m cracking up
Am I just paranoid ? I´m just stoned
Grasping to control, so you better hold on
Sometimes I give myself the creeps
Sometimes my mind plays tricks on me
It all keeps adding up, I think I´m cracking up
Am I just paranoid ? I´m just stoned
okay, that song came from my emotions, as i am feeling quite energetic right now. i think i might have scared poor pat. he is my buss captain, and he and matt came over today and started to shuvel my porch. my enthusiasm seemed to scare poor pat, as he started to throw snow balls at me...
alas, my time has come, i shall begin to listen to john song "falling in love on accident." i have faith that it is going to be a great work of art, as i have not listened to it yet, but i am about to.
Tuesday, December 2, 2008
the hunt is on
okay, this is gonna be weird. but yeah, me and my friend felisha are gonna be hunting for a boyfriend for me. she was absalutely scared that my prediction for the day was that i would die alone with my 9 cats...
and then i had this dream! it was like takin a trip on a heroine rolercoster...
i was like, laying on my couch with some guy. i dont know who it was, but he was cute! anyway we where just laying there on the coutch watchin a movie together.
it was like, my ideal date thing. but yeah, i want that dream to come treu really bad now.
isnt that weird?
but hey, i found a new song on my cousin torries CD. its called Shine. its by the Plain White T's.
its amazing. but i still think that secondhand serenade is better.
You know it tears me up inside to see the feelings that you hide Hide
inside that empty bottle
I wish you saw how great you were I wish you saw what life was worth
You wouldn't have to hide your problems
And I don't care what you might think
I think you've had too much to drink
Can't even talk when you're this way
Run away, run away
But that won't make it any better
Run away, run away
And make tomorrow harder to live than today
There's so much out there you could miss
there's so much life out there to live
If you would just believe in yourself
You know you're better than all of this
you know you've got so much to give
But you're so afraid to give of yourself
And I don't care what you might think
I think you've had too much to drink
Can't even talk when you're this way
Run away, run away
But that won't make it any better
Run away, run away
And make tomorrow harder to live than today
There's a bright light shining inside you
it shines out through your eyes
Don't drown it away, don't be afraid,
don't hide
Let it shine...let it shine
You say you're looking for happiness
but when it comes, you run away from it
You tell yourself you don't deserve it
There's not much more that I can do
now the rest is up to you
youll keep on running untile you learn to deal with today
isnt it great!? i has to go now byes!
and then i had this dream! it was like takin a trip on a heroine rolercoster...
i was like, laying on my couch with some guy. i dont know who it was, but he was cute! anyway we where just laying there on the coutch watchin a movie together.
it was like, my ideal date thing. but yeah, i want that dream to come treu really bad now.
isnt that weird?
but hey, i found a new song on my cousin torries CD. its called Shine. its by the Plain White T's.
its amazing. but i still think that secondhand serenade is better.
You know it tears me up inside to see the feelings that you hide Hide
inside that empty bottle
I wish you saw how great you were I wish you saw what life was worth
You wouldn't have to hide your problems
And I don't care what you might think
I think you've had too much to drink
Can't even talk when you're this way
Run away, run away
But that won't make it any better
Run away, run away
And make tomorrow harder to live than today
There's so much out there you could miss
there's so much life out there to live
If you would just believe in yourself
You know you're better than all of this
you know you've got so much to give
But you're so afraid to give of yourself
And I don't care what you might think
I think you've had too much to drink
Can't even talk when you're this way
Run away, run away
But that won't make it any better
Run away, run away
And make tomorrow harder to live than today
There's a bright light shining inside you
it shines out through your eyes
Don't drown it away, don't be afraid,
don't hide
Let it shine...let it shine
You say you're looking for happiness
but when it comes, you run away from it
You tell yourself you don't deserve it
There's not much more that I can do
now the rest is up to you
youll keep on running untile you learn to deal with today
isnt it great!? i has to go now byes!
Monday, December 1, 2008
the truest song ever
the best song ever is vulnerable, by secondhand serinade. thay make the best songs ever. and it is 11:01 right now. my day has been stupid. i spent it in depression. i cried for about an hour. my moms ex boyfriend came over to visit my little brother. and my mom's birthday is coming up soon. i dont have a date for my dance on saterday. christmas is coming up and i dont really want much. i have givin up my dreams.
all of this crap has happened today. but on the up side. i got to talk to heidi for a minute or two.
yeah, but when things go rong, it helps to have a song that discribes the way you want things to go. the way your life is now. and a song for your happy ending.
share with me the blankets that your wrapped in
couse its cold outside, its cold outside
share with me the secrets that you kept in
couse its cold inside, its cold inside
and your slowly shaking fingertips
show me that your scared like me
so lets pretend we're alone
and i know you may be scared
and i know we're unprepared
but i dont care
tell me tell me what makes you think your invincable
i can see it in your eyes that your so sure
please dont tell me that im the only one thats vulnerable
impossible
i was born to tell you that i love you
but isnt that a song already?
i get a B for originality
and its true i cant go on without you
your smile makes me see clearer
if only you could see in the mirror what i see
and your slowly shaking fingertips
show me that your scared like me
so lets pretend we're alone
and i know you may be scared
and i know we're unprepared
but i dont care
tell me tell me
what makes you think your invincable
i can see it in your eyes
your so sure
please dont tell me im the only one thats vulnerable
impossible
slow down girl your not going anywhere
just wait around and see maybe I am much more you never no what lies ahead
I promise I can be anyone I can be anything
just because you were hurt doesn't mean you shouldn't bleed
I can be anyone anything I promise I can be what you need
tell me tell me
what makes you think you are invincable
i can see it in your eyes
please dont tell me that im the only one thats vulnerable
impossible
isnt it a freaking greate song!? btw the only reasone im still awake is that i drank a can of rockstar!
i has school in the morning too....
oh well. i guess the lord spoke to me today. because, after all that happened, i got the urge to read my bible.
well ill post tommorow
all of this crap has happened today. but on the up side. i got to talk to heidi for a minute or two.
yeah, but when things go rong, it helps to have a song that discribes the way you want things to go. the way your life is now. and a song for your happy ending.
share with me the blankets that your wrapped in
couse its cold outside, its cold outside
share with me the secrets that you kept in
couse its cold inside, its cold inside
and your slowly shaking fingertips
show me that your scared like me
so lets pretend we're alone
and i know you may be scared
and i know we're unprepared
but i dont care
tell me tell me what makes you think your invincable
i can see it in your eyes that your so sure
please dont tell me that im the only one thats vulnerable
impossible
i was born to tell you that i love you
but isnt that a song already?
i get a B for originality
and its true i cant go on without you
your smile makes me see clearer
if only you could see in the mirror what i see
and your slowly shaking fingertips
show me that your scared like me
so lets pretend we're alone
and i know you may be scared
and i know we're unprepared
but i dont care
tell me tell me
what makes you think your invincable
i can see it in your eyes
your so sure
please dont tell me im the only one thats vulnerable
impossible
slow down girl your not going anywhere
just wait around and see maybe I am much more you never no what lies ahead
I promise I can be anyone I can be anything
just because you were hurt doesn't mean you shouldn't bleed
I can be anyone anything I promise I can be what you need
tell me tell me
what makes you think you are invincable
i can see it in your eyes
please dont tell me that im the only one thats vulnerable
impossible
isnt it a freaking greate song!? btw the only reasone im still awake is that i drank a can of rockstar!
i has school in the morning too....
oh well. i guess the lord spoke to me today. because, after all that happened, i got the urge to read my bible.
well ill post tommorow
an off day
yes, today has been vary weird so far. if you know me well, you will know that i HATE snow.
i hate everything cold. yes, even ice cream. i like warm things.
well guess what! it snowed! alot! and guess who's turn it is to shuvel the porch! right! mine!
school was canceled today. that gives me time to try and get my stupid camera to work. the pictures refuse to dowload to the computer...so i cant get any new pictures to my friends and family. today isnt my day. and its only 11:28 AM!
but the good news is that i am no longer evil.
the dog is fine and my little brother still has all his limbs. and me and mom seem to be getting off fine. the only problem right now is that i cant find a proper shirt...
yeah, and im busy making a chistmas list. so far i have. A new DS touch screen [mine broke T-T]
my chemical romance CD. new art suplies. and a cure for writers block! i might even want a new manga to read...but i live all the way out to central lake...i cant get to wall mart in gaylord...
if only i had a good friend that would take pitty on me....
but yeah, i will no longer be striving for my goal to be an author or a manga-ka. it seems pointless. lots of people want to be the same thing, so what are my chances of getting past the compotision. my own father told me i wouldnt make it! and there isnt any hope of me going to collage to even up the odds. my family isnt wealthy enough to even get me into a christain collage...and my grades suck, they always have.
yeah...ill still write and draw for fun, but it seems i have no particular tallent. im just another seemingly suicidal teen [im not suicidal, i said seemingly!] that will most likely get pregnant at a young age and end up a house wife. wich, as long as i have a good husband, i will be happy.
i hate everything cold. yes, even ice cream. i like warm things.
well guess what! it snowed! alot! and guess who's turn it is to shuvel the porch! right! mine!
school was canceled today. that gives me time to try and get my stupid camera to work. the pictures refuse to dowload to the computer...so i cant get any new pictures to my friends and family. today isnt my day. and its only 11:28 AM!
but the good news is that i am no longer evil.
the dog is fine and my little brother still has all his limbs. and me and mom seem to be getting off fine. the only problem right now is that i cant find a proper shirt...
yeah, and im busy making a chistmas list. so far i have. A new DS touch screen [mine broke T-T]
my chemical romance CD. new art suplies. and a cure for writers block! i might even want a new manga to read...but i live all the way out to central lake...i cant get to wall mart in gaylord...
if only i had a good friend that would take pitty on me....
but yeah, i will no longer be striving for my goal to be an author or a manga-ka. it seems pointless. lots of people want to be the same thing, so what are my chances of getting past the compotision. my own father told me i wouldnt make it! and there isnt any hope of me going to collage to even up the odds. my family isnt wealthy enough to even get me into a christain collage...and my grades suck, they always have.
yeah...ill still write and draw for fun, but it seems i have no particular tallent. im just another seemingly suicidal teen [im not suicidal, i said seemingly!] that will most likely get pregnant at a young age and end up a house wife. wich, as long as i have a good husband, i will be happy.
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